I've published very little and for several reasons that include this (and resulted, for me, in submitting few pieces and far between)...
The only thing I sort of know is that the bigger venues tend to have longer reading times and sometimes they hold on to pieces because they make it to the next round(s). One venue kept a story for five months, but rejected my next submission within a month and I feel that, indeed, the first was a lot better aligned with their sensibilities than the quickly rejected one.
The feeling of the loop is too real. I struggle with it a lot. Always feeling like I should be doing more, as if somehow I'm falling behind (even though it's not a race).
Oh my god!!! This is me! This is exactly me!!! I'm terrible, terrible in the in-between, even though over the years I have improved through it.
Yesterday night I released a newsletter that literally flew through me like butter...and I have already checked my stats 10 times already!
I hate and judge that part of myself while still trying to love her somehow. Uuuggghhhh! Thank you for this. So much!
its the worst! you aren’t alone
//If I hear nothing, I assume the worst. I’m a failure. I’ll never be anything.
A gut punch.
I've published very little and for several reasons that include this (and resulted, for me, in submitting few pieces and far between)...
The only thing I sort of know is that the bigger venues tend to have longer reading times and sometimes they hold on to pieces because they make it to the next round(s). One venue kept a story for five months, but rejected my next submission within a month and I feel that, indeed, the first was a lot better aligned with their sensibilities than the quickly rejected one.
The feeling of the loop is too real. I struggle with it a lot. Always feeling like I should be doing more, as if somehow I'm falling behind (even though it's not a race).
This was a really relatable read!